I'm sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. Our little girl has been home for a bit over a month now and we're still just trying to adjust to life with not only two kids, but a special needs child as well. She keeps me hopping all day and night, but we're glad to have her home. At some point I'll write out her birth story and the story of our time at the NICU. It's still just too soon. And I'll write too about the struggles we're having with bonding now that she's home. There was a lot of trauma in her first few months and I have to admit I don't feel like she's mine yet. I feel like her nurse and I'm afraid she sees me that way, too. Things are getting better, but we're still in crisis/survival mode. Please just continue to pray for us. And pray for me as I still grieve what we've lost and struggle to make up for it now.