Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Hi. My name is Megan and I'm a procrastinator.
I'm actually procrastinating right now. Yep, this very moment. I should be cleaning for an appraisal of our house tomorrow, but instead I'm writing a blog post on procrastinating. Amazing how the guilt doesn't push me back to cleaning, huh?
A little background: in school I would never do the homework until the day before it was due. Sometimes the day of. And studying for a test never occurred too far in advance either. I used to feel horribly guilty about it. I would beat myself up and hate myself every time I was down to the last minute again. I'm stunned looking back at the amount of self-loathing that occurred because I didn't get things done ahead of time.
After a particular rant against myself and my procrastinating ways, my counselor asked me one day if my grades were suffering because of my procrastinating. Well...no. In fact, I was a straight A student. He suggested that maybe this was just my style: I merely needed that extra motivation and pressure to get things done. I was still getting things done, done well, and on time, so why was I beating myself up that a certain project wasn't done days or weeks in advance?
Talk about a light bulb moment.
You have no idea how freeing this was! Suddenly the guilt was gone. I wasn't a lazy bum. I wasn't a slacker. I just had a different style to accomplishing things. This realization even allowed me to work on things ahead of time, knowing that I didn't have to finish it right then. I could just do the prep work for that last push at the last minute.
So yes, I'm a procrastinator. And I'm not trying to change.